When your dead you feel no pain...Sucicide is the ultimate escape of not being able to face your feelings or yourself...or loosely your circumstances...consequences of your actions.
The fear of heights and suicide....is your fear of being out of control.
What people don't realize is that we control NOTHING...it is only an illusion that we control anything including your emotions. The more we try to control the more brittle we become and are liable to snap when under pressure. One might say the greater the control the greater the snap, as the floodgates are suddenly opened. The idea is to let yourself feel whatever it is that you feel as you feel it..
Paradoxily the less one trys to control themselves the more control they have over their actions. That is why I am totally out of control..and Mother keeps on telling me so...
What it boils down to is that each one of us is a unique indvdual with feelings, likes and dislikes. If you are feeling something you should honor that feeling, there is a good reason for it. Maybe one should just try and discover the reason or circumstances for it.
