[Schumi]

I got one of those calls tonight that you just never want to get..

I lived next to a neighbor girl growing up for about ten years- she was my best friend and her family and mine were very close. I cannot think of a lot of childhood memories where she wasn't there- I was an only child and she was like my sister. I eventually moved and we grew apart- she was about 4 years older than I and we lost touch after I moved. She ran with a rough crowd and her father, who was a good friend of the family, excommunicated her after time after time of bailing her out of jail, etc...

I haven't seen her in about 6 years- I had found out she had a kid, and he grew up- he's something like 8 years old now I guess. She had some scum boyfriends, got into drugs, etc. She lost custody of her boy a few years ago and he went to live with the father's mother, the only person around I guess. Last I heard she was getting better, had gotten back into touch with her mom and was spending time with her boy, supposedly out of her previous lifestyle.

Supposedly she was suffering a lot of depression, she was living with her mother, taking care of her, as her mother has terminal cancer.

This sunday she took a boatload of her mother's cancer medication, presumably washed down with a glass of vodka. She tucked her son into bed and told him she loved him and 'goodbye'. She was found dead the next morning, not sure by who.


Man, I'm just at a loss. I feel so bad, not just for her but for her little boy, who I have met a few times- he's a really wonderful kid given his circumstances (bum father, been tossed around from mom to grandmother etc). She was my sister growing up, and she's gone for good now- I had always hoped that I'd get to visit with her again some day as she was deciding to get back on track. The one decision she made that was permanent was the one to end it.