[Crowbob]

I fully realize these words may ring hollow to you right now but they need to be said anyway, Schumi. Your lost friend was the only person able to prevent this. It is likely a large part of the pain you feel is guilt and remorse. Maybe you could have been a better friend, maybe you could have intervened or been more supportive or maybe you could have done myriad other things for her. These feelings are appropriate and not uncommon. But, please forgive me, they are false. The reality is more like you and she shared the happiest times of your lives together. Grieve for her and those around her but only the tincture of time will heal the wounds. Live a moral life in her honor. Go forward with strength and love.