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Finially i am understood....clarity of vision. If I had run into U things might have been different because U can spot the references. Thats what I was looking for to begin with, and was very disapointed when no one caught it. I have been running on reputation for a long time now, no longer do I even have to say something to get a reaction, as U have so nimbly have been able to ascertain. I have been playing just to the reputation. (Also be aware of my self parody..... and this was a reminder of the old days for me as well when I was a "King Mixer") So it was fun and I was able to laugh a little.

Sloppiness......I was working from memory and it had been a while since I had seen Strangelove, it worked out well though it segued into the 2nd post. Actually in the begining I was being very creative, creating dialogue and even writing short stories. Also I am not writing a research paper here either, most of this stuff is just off the top of my head.

Now I have learned some things here as well.......I learned that I have 360*mental vision around me it's, almost as if I am on a playing field. When I post something there are basically 2 choichs the reader can make, in other words I am able to take both sides of the equation into perspective at the same time. I take the the negative reaction and think what can that be. I then think what is my response to that. It hasn't failed me yet. Also there has been positive feedback as well or I would have stopped long ago. I am also able to gage razor thin shades of reactions both within my self and others.....I can't adequately describe it though. The dark side is and what I have watched within myself is manipulation of response. That I won't do.

I told the boyz long ago that a friend of mine had started the Graduate School of Psychology at Fuller Seminary in Pasadena, he passed away a few years back btw. Fuller if U know the politics in the proffession controled the licensing Board for Psychology in California for years. Also one of my dearest friends over sees PHd canidates in Psychology for a University in So CAL (I think he is the Assistant Dean if I remember what he told me correctly?) Numerous students of his are now running programs in various Universitys throughout the country. His wife also has her Phd in Psych. My association with these people goes back 30 years. What a strange trip it's been down a long and winding road..... The boyz thought I was kidding...I wasn't. (As an aside my friend had the cleanest early 66 911 I had ever seen wt the wood dash and wood steering wheel).

I will tell U something about myself......when someone throws a rock in my pond and upsets me.....I am able to pull back within myself and thread the I of the needle and untie the Gordian knot within. I have been able to that for over 15 years, under the heaviest duress imaginable.

And this is the direction my writing on these boards was taking before I was preempted.

"What does it profit a man to gain the world only to lose his soul."

When U feel the flames of the abyss licking at your feet u realize what your losing.

"It's out of that abyss of nothingness that insight into the dark side comes. It's by owning the darkness within, that the light comes and with the light comes power."

Now the boyz have flanked me, so I have retreated to the high ground.......

PS...BTW If you notice I havn't been playing around very much on this OT Board, most of my posts on this Board have been pretty straight.