HHI944, I know what you mean. Since my Father's heart attack two years ago, I've been changing too. Add this on top of it, and it's shaking me pretty good. I used to be a smart assed, surly, prick most of the time, and the last few years has caused me to change my whole way of being. A close friend noticed, and sent me this in an email today, and she didn't even know about my Mother. I hope it's not too sappy, but it is really ringing true to me right now. If it is too sappy, understand I haven't slept much / well this week
An old Cherokee told his grandson, "My son, there is a battle between two wolves inside us all. One is Evil. It is anger, jealousy, greed, resentment, inferiority, lies, & ego. The other is Good. It is joy, peace, love, hope, humility, kindness, empathy, & truth." The boy thought about it, and asked, "Grandfather, which wolf wins?" The old man quietly replied, "The one you feed."