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Timely question Sammy. Yesterday was a tough one for me!! I got up and first thing got the news about Lisa. Boy did that get to me, to a degree that surprised me. Don't
get me wrong. She seemed a true friend even tho I hadn't met her in person. Her writing talent and ability to share herself and family were exceptional. Making it easy to connect with her. Her humor was classic.

But as the day went on things didn't smooth out for me, in fact it got worse.
Then It occurred to me that part of what I was feeling may be deferred grief from the passing of my sister in law. She passed about 2 weeks ago and also got a late diagnosis of cancer, and passed in about 6 weeks.
And up to yesterday I hadn't really grieved for her passing completely. So I think that there was a lot of repressed pain and grief in my heart. It all welled up for me yesterday and flowed out. Leaving me feeling like a rung out dish rag.

So today I am once again working on this issue of death and grieving, It is a part of the natural process of life. And I am trying to get a handle on why it can hit me so hard, even more so as I get older. Intellectually I understand this and accept it, but emotionally I'm certainly not celebrating!!

I am starting to think this may be part of my life's work thru the latter part of mine. To get a handle on this.

Any one else chewing on this issue? Got insight?

Cheers Richard