[recycled sixtie]

I think that it is called a mid-life crisis. But on a more positive note you are doing a rethink about your life.
Perhaps you can get a leave of absence from your job for a while? I always say to myself you don't know what you have got till it is gone. Some other job u would rather do? As for the 911, if u don't drive it much then u would miss it less?