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Sorry about your Dad. I would not worry too much about what you're feeling or not feeling, father/son relationships can be complicated and run the gamut from extreme affection to complete indifference to hatred.

Whenever someone's parent dies and it's posted on this board, people tend to project their own experience with losing a parent to the OP. I understand the sympathy and kindness but it might be 180 degrees away from someone else's relationship with a parent.

I wish you the best through it.