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Originally Posted by tweezers74
Oooooooo... Love that surfing analogy!!! I over-think everything. Even my surfing instructor said that. You are right. Sometimes I am good at enjoying the moment and others I revert to old ways. I guess I am hesitant because well, I have been scorned too many times. My divorce nearly killed me. I was a wreck. I had to be in therapy by myself for almost a year AFTER marriage therapy. And since my divorce, let's just say I let my guard down and my heart has taken a couple more beatings. I know I need the companionship of a man. It's human nature. Maybe that is why I have a lot of guy friends. It's safe. We go out, have fun and I go home. My heart is spared. I truly think my guard is up. It's like I love the feeling of catching the wave because I have done it before. But my last wipe out was so bad that it messed up my head. I am so scared of wiping out bad again, that I just go for those little waves, not even enjoying those fully because I am so freaking scared. So, I settle for boogie boarding...
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Guarding your heart is good. I bet you can do that and still savor the moment of each wave while you are in it.