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Originally Posted by nostatic
I blame my mother...
I had two different therapists starting when my marriage started going south. The first was great - down-to-earth, fairly positive but didn't let me get away with anything. Went to her for about 5 years (before-during-after divorce). She helped me figure out why I was having the thoughts I was having and making the decisions that I was making. She also helped shine a light on some pretty ugly stuff that one tends to gloss over, rationalize, or ignore altogether. It turns out that the subconscious though doesn't forget and can extract its revenge.
The second therapist was a ball-buster - very cold and austere. She was of a certain school that was heavily into dreams and psychoanalysis (an offshoot of Jungian). I went to her for about a year and a half until I reached a point where it was actually going the wrong direction. Therapy is a weird beast - the goal of the therapist (who is also a business person) is to have you eventually not use their services. So it is tricky to figure out when to disengage and work on your own. In my case it was tied to a relationship so it was a little easier to make that decision.
I haven't met anyone who couldn't benefit from some good psychotherapy. But plenty of people do just fine without it. It is pretty amazing to be able to connect things that happened decades ago pretty much directly to actions you take today. The human mind is whack...
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So u are one of those who made some major personality changes which equates to a life long journey down the road of self awareness. Your circle of light eg awareness is ever expanding. Some one long ago told me that I resolve conflicts, and that I was unique in that I was able to go so far. I put that down to having the will and determination. It is all a matter of what you want and how bad you want it. You know how when you look at the sky when your on the high desert or high sierras you can see all the stars in the Milky Way? That is what I see when I close my eyes, I instantaneously turn the thinking process off and go quiet. When I write it is virtually auto writing sentence by sentence and that is why you see idiosyncrasies in style. I virtually never know exactly where it is going to end up. that means that there is an almost direct connection to the subconscious. That is why my analytical processes are speeding up. Tis is all a descriptive metaphor for a state of being.