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Sorry to see you in such a bad way Dennis, I too have enjoyed your calm evenhanded posting in PARF. The bridge abutment idea is not one of your best.

The shortness of breath following the pneumonia could very well improve, I am not sure of the time frame of the malaise. The tumor on CT does not appear to be cancerous. A biopsy of the tumor would help ease your mind or give you something to fight against if it were cancerous.

My brother had a similar scare about 5 years ago. A smoker since his teens, his chest xray showed a nodule and the subsequent CT was inconclusive. He was going to have a biopsy performed and the pre surgical clearance turned up heart disease. They put a stent in for the blockage and followed with the needle biopsy of the lung nodule. The nodule was negative for cancer and the stent cleared up some of the fatigue and shortness of breath that he had been having.

His situation and yours may be totally dissimilar but my point is to continue to fight and seek help.

I suspect the line about your wife may be contributing greatly to your dark thoughts. It is much easier to heal a body when the mind is healthy. I don't have any good advice to give in that regard but I wish you the absolute best.

Hang in there, you have many friends that you have never met.