Richie ^^^^ hell yeah!!!!!
Sorry. I've been there too. Hang in there, and take things one step at a time. Things really will get better. Sounds like you have put a lot of energy into making the relationship work. You probably don't have a lot of energy right now, but in time you will. Take that effort and invest it in yourself. Use that energy to make sure all three of you end up in a better place.
Just to share- My first wife wanted a divorce and moved out. She remarried and had kids. Then she got a brain tumor. She had surgery, and lost her memory. She could remember our relationship better than her new husband's relationship. This was a weird side effect of what was (and still is) a life threatening event. The point here is this-
Although I keep a distance, we still keep in touch on good terms and we are both in better places, and we are both happy with the other's successes. The divorce was one of those "we will laugh about this 5 years from now" type of things, although, it sure didn't feel like it at the time, and if someone had of said that to me back then- I would have punched em'
