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Originally Posted by pavulon
Perhaps others can relate to my experience with divorce. It has been existentially shattering and continues to reverberate though out my life. In the past 4 years, I have found myself standing at more personal and professional crossroads than I imagined for my entire life. There are 4 children in the middle of this mess too. This week, the hits kept coming and I was told to leave my position of 17 years. In my nearly 40 years of working, I've never been fired before. While I continue to cling to a few fundamental values for day to day navigation, I find myself wondering if there will be any recovering from it for me and my heart goes out to anyone going through it. Emotions ebb and tide but I have not been able to get the page turned.
I do find that writing about how this has impacted me to be therapeutic. It makes me reduce my feelings to words and then to try to make some sense of them. It also is beneficial to talk about it as daylight can be a good disinfectant. I do not enjoy the vulnerability that comes with talking about issues or feelings as allowing for vulnerability has not always worked well for me and is a real struggle. I could see this being an issue for many other men as well.
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man, I can relate to so much of this. Well put.
I like to think I'm on the upswing now, and I'll say this: *Everything* is different now, and it's been my job to make sure that at any fork in the road, I make things BETTER than they were before. I think it's made me more accountable, especially to myself.
One of the nicest changes is that I find it a lot easier to eatablish and maintain clearer boundaries expectations with relationships. That alone has been a huge game changer.
It's a rough go, but it can be like hitting "reset". How you rebuild is up to you. Once you have your head on straight, that part can be pretty exciting.