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This is an amazingly tough position. My sweet girl leeloo (standard poodle) had started chewing things when her 'brother' (alpha) puck died. Leeloos sun rose and set on puck.

She got into the carpet one day, it was long, long strings. I got her to the vet, x-ray said they had to go in. $8k on splitting her open. Put her back together and there was just too much damage to the inner lining of the colon. She wasn't holding fluids. She was coughing it up as fast as they could pump it in. Eight hours later I put her to sleep forever.

Hardest thing I have ever had to do.

I have had people tell me I was crazy spending that kinda money, but I am lucky to have it and I have never had kids. I don't regret spending the money, cause we wouldn't know till the surgeon was in there...and I would give my girl whatever chance she could have.

I am a widower also after 19 years, so once you've done something like that money doesn't mean much anymore. All that planning, and saving, and doing the right thing only to not have the person you wanted to share all the savings with kinda does a reset on ones self...