I'm one year separated from the ex and couldn't be happier. Out from under a 10 year slide which I didn't realize was even happening. This frog jumped from the pot. In business and in relationships there are assets and there are liabilities.
Her dog was trying to tell me the truth all along: The more I fed and walked and loved on him the more he tried to bite the crap out of me.
To live in fear each and every day is no way to live at all. Say something the wrong way or try to do something nice and it was boom there she goes again. I could have tossed her belongings out on the front lawn but did the honorable thing instead. I made sure she was financially secure, paid off her car again, get her a w/d, moved, set up, and helped her in every way. In return she tried to screw me over every opportunity. Just like before. Yeah, and then she wanted back in later on..
I now feel 100% morally vindicated in my past beliefs and actions. That feeling is like a warm glow within me every single day. Internally and permanent. Not external and temporary. It is the constant pat of acknowledgment and freedom and an eternal spring of inspiration. I did the right thing. My hands are clean. The world is an oyster again. The more pain I felt back then, the easier it is to appreciate life now. She really did me a favor.
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One year from now you will feel so much better Wayner. You'll see.
Hang in there for now buddy.