[wayner]

I think her perfect version of reality was separate residences but one plutonic relationship with none of my socks to pick up.

While hurting badly, I was willing to help her get set up and make sure that she was safe and financially stable and debt free.

Somehow she misinterpreted something and is lawyering up for fight suddenly.

Though she has apparently been harboring these grass is greener thoughts much longer than I ever imagined, and announced this to me and distanced herself from me leaving me hurting more after the announcement, I think for her the panic of reality is setting in, that she can't leave me and have me at the same time.

Before she just wanted to leave me, now she wants to do me in...
I just want to feel normal again.


(before this reconciliation was not an acceptable option to her and I hung on to that hope for too long causing myself further injury and business distraction, leaving me an emotional wreck, and, with no current business on the table due to the distraction, but still having some resources in reserve, now living in my truck to preserve them out of sudden irrational fear on my part that I will go bankrupt )

Im going to keep my head down and try not to engage, while I try to regain some personal stability. I'm a mess and can't believe that I am opening up my feeling to anyone at all. Im not who I used to be right now.

Thank you.
I mean you. All of you