[sc_rufctr]

Forget the toys for now. Take some leave from work and go on a trip. Somewhere O.S or a cruise?

You may think you're OK but you're not.

Do something for yourself but most importantly let some time pass before making any big financial decisions.
I'd say a minimum of 36 months... Sorry but that's it.

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FWIW: I'd bet your ex's marriage doesn't last. Maybe 5 years if she's really lucky.
People change a lot in 30 years. It will never be like it was when they first got together.
I'm not writing this to make you feel better. It's just the way it is.