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Hey gang, well Mom had hit a plateau of sorts and she was "stable" for a while. But her condition seems to have gone off of a cliff. I spent the day with doctors and a hospice expert. Mom has gone into that strange space, talking to phantoms or no one in particular. She has been refusing food and is currently hospitalized for dehydration. How that happened in a nursing home is a bit of a wonder.

I sat with her for about four hours today just watching her go in and out of wakefulness. She spoke just a few words but never directed at me. I think she was talking to my Dad (who passed 12 years ago). At one point she said "hurry up my father will be home soon!" I laughed out loud!

The elder care people want to put her on something called "routine hospice" which is apparently the step before end of life care. I'm her medical proxy and made sure that her DNR was known to everyone and that my priority is her comfort.

If there is any grace left in my life I hope it is used to ease her passing and may heaven forgive me that her passing comes soon.

Peace my friends.