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My dad passed nearly 20 years ago and I still think of him often. He was a good guy. Always trying to do the right thing and family came first but in the end he went quietly.

I have no regrets and you shouldn't either. I wanted him to live longer but he had diabetes and died of a heart attack on the dialysis chair! He was only 57 years old! (long painful story) In the months before the end they had cut off both his legs and 4 of his fingers. He lost his left eye after getting laser surgery that went bad a few years earlier.

He was frustrated and unhappy. He stuck to his diet and took his medication but things still went from bad to worse. He was heart broken when he couldn't drive anymore. The only joys he had left was his family & watching the soccer. The night before he died Italy lost and were out of the world cup final. He was very happy about that result! (long back story here)

In time things WILL get better but you shouldn't feel guilty. You love him and he knows that and that's all that matters.