[wayner]

Well, the best thing that come out of this self reflection is unravelling all of the brainwashing and blame etc, that when heard often enough you begin to believe

While I still have a ways to banish some of those now ingrained beliefs, I realize clearly that while she tried hard in many areas and in some ways was the perfect woman, that I was alone in working on improvements

All she could do was more of what she could do
(Cook even more fabulous meals etc, but her main improvement mechanism was to wait and see)

Self reflection was not a tool that she seemed to possess, and I couldn’t be the only one to do that.

I started off a strong confident guy who would not take **** from anyone, but
By the end there was nothing left of me

The boiling frog analogy fits well, it snuck on me and I guess in hindsight I did not do enough to look out for me. I didn’t think I had to, I thought we were a team, and by the time that I realized I had to, it was too late

I wasn’t perfect, but at least I knew it and was always willing to do something about it

I’ll close this off with this:

1) I took on too much responsibility and it took its toll
2) She listened to the wrong people and squandered our happiness

I’m off to reinvent ME
Wayner out