[wayner]

Based on the last few responses I think some have the wrong idea of wh I posted

My update was about progress over the last year, not stuck in the past

Sure in July just before I left on my trip to the Arctic Ocean, I backslid a bit when she made a play for me and I shut her down. I second guessed that but did it based on a pattern I recognized of go away come back, and on my trip I did have self doubt and replayed and questioned my own role, but on the trip motion put it into perspective and snapped that internal loop I was stuck in by pointing out she probably wanted her cake and eat it too

That perspective helped immensely

But having said that, this update was about progress

Step 1 was a long time ago

I’m at step 5
With a admittedly a toe still a bit stuck in step 4
But that natural with the loss of my dog and my annual evaluation of my financial situation as the new year approaches

If there is any rear view mirror looking, it’s to be clear to myself on how I let this all happen without seeing it coming or taking control sooner, with a eye to preventing a repeat situation

So here is to progress