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January will make it one year for me. 14.5 yrs attached at the hip and took less than 30 days to destroy it. I don't think about it as much day to day but the thoughts still creep in mostly when I think about the reason why she left ( drugs ). When she left all she personally owned fit in a few boxes and trash bags as she had already pawned anything she owned of value. I saw the signs and tried to get ahold of the situation but it backfired in my face. It destroyed everything about her that I loved and by the time I forced her hand she wasn't even the same person. I kept the house, furniture, and the 930. She did get my two Dobermans unfortunately but I adopted (rescued ) a 9 month old male afterwards. Up to her leaving we were the couple who were going to make it as I and everyone we knew thought. Things change quickly it seems. I'm still single and probably will be for some time to come. I wont force the situation trying to meet someone new, it will happen in time. I haven't seen or spoken with her since June when she came to collect the rest of her things. Last I knew she was living in a trailer park probably with her father. Not a month after she left I received a promotion at work and am doing better now than ever before which isn't too bad for a guy like me. One of my friends made a good statement saying that I'm on my way up as she's on her way down, truth. The thing I most worry about is how my two dogs are doing because I miss them dearly. Head up, one foot in front of the other, the sun will rise tomorrow.