[Rick Lee]

Have we discussed this one yet?

I struggle with this, but I really have no reason to be stressed. I'm 48 and only in the last five years realized that nothing I have ever worried about, not once, has ever turned out to be as bad as I worried about it being. So, in that regard, I am extraordinarily lucky ... and I know it. I just can't let go of stress about stuff, usually related to work or money.

The one time I lost a job that I really couldn't afford to lose, I had a better (more enjoyable and higher paying) job exactly 30 days later. I got very unexpectedly laid off this past January and it was from my favorite ever job - a total gut punch. Two months later I'm working for myself and making more than I ever have, no boss, no meetings, no quotas, ball-busting, nothing.

In my thing we're supposed to call on Sat. mornings to set Monday appts. The others who do this stuff (final expense insurance sales) have a group chat app, and many of them set 8-12 appts. for Monday. I've had two weeks in a row of not being able to reach a single person on the phone, but I've still made my personal revenue goal by calling when I'm on the way to door knocking or just not even calling at all. Hell, I've made a week's pay by knocking on a door of a guy who happened to be homeless and had given me a bogus address, but the lady who answered invited me in. It's insane. There is no pipeline in this job. You get in your car on Monday morning, having no idea what's going to happen. I even blew last Monday off and still got to my goal by Thursday afternoon.

I went to the range yesterday and was more pissed off when I left than when I had arrived. Malfunctioning range rental gun, range officer yelled at me for disassembling to inspect, uncomfortable triggers on a few beater Glocks I decided to un-mothball and just not great shooting like I'm used to.

I'm in three bands and only like one of them. But I keep playing with the other two because it gets me out playing my guitar super loud for hours at a time with a band.

Marriage is fantastic, health great, love where I live. But I worry all the time about problems most people would kill to have as problems. How to learn to cope? Meditation, motorcycling, more gym?